- Letter writing was a part of my life for decades but now I just email. Sorry, United States Postal Service -- email is cheaper. I might go back to letter writing, just to my son, because holding a letter in hand is a gift.
- Journaling has always been important to me. I saw a quote once that went something like this --- "I don't know what I think until I read what I wrote." That is part of it. I journal so that I won't forget. I journal so that I can see how the Lord has had a hand in my life, how prayers were answered. I journal to help me figure things out. I journal because I can write some things for only me to see that I can not say to anyone. I journal to let things out.
- If you have read this blog before today you know I suffered a mental breakdown a few years ago and I am still recovering. Losing one's mind -- well, there is a reason it is called a "breakdown." You find yourself broken. It was suggested to me that writing a blog might be a way to help find myself, understand myself, deal with the changes that have come.
- I am a weird introvert. In my former life I had a job where I did very extrovert things. I did a lot of public speaking, acting in skits, storytelling, that kind of thing and I was able to do that by taking on a persona. I have read that many actors are introverts and this is how they are able to practice their craft. It worked for me, but once I had to face the world as myself I became a big ole introvert. Because of the responsibilities I had in my former life I spoke with a lot of people every day and I enjoyed it very much. In my current life I see very few people, almost none. I miss that contact. Blogging is a way to reach out. Comments are a wonderful reward.
- I have always been agoraphobic to some degree, varying degrees at different times in my life, and intensely so after my breakdown. During the worst spells of agoraphobia I could only leave my house, or attend meetings, or go to the store if one of my "safe" people were with me. Needing a person that makes me feel safe is very important. If you are agoraphobic and can't easily go out into the world then you feel pretty isolated. You need friends, but friends are out in that world.
- I am not a writer, highly educated, or even a student of writing classes but I like to write. I just like to put down thoughts. I love the feel of a pen or pencil against paper. Blogging, of course, does not involve pen or pencil, but the feel of laptop keys is comforting as well.
- I am hearing impaired. I don't know when I lost my hearing. If you have never heard perfectly you just don't know. I started wearing hearing aides in my late 40's when it became necessary in order to keep working. Hearing aides are very price-y (for me anyway), only last 5 or 6 years at best (well, that was true back in the day when I last had a pair), companies won't even let you send them in for repair if they are older than 4 years old (again, true back in the day), and mine just never worked all that great. If I could afford hearing aides I would have a pair right now but they are just not affordable. Even with hearing aides I still had a horrible time trying to understand consonants. Baby, lady, gravy all sound the same to me. Having a conversation with someone is something else. The gears in my mind are constantly churning, trying to figure out what word would make sense here during the times I might understand some words and misunderstand others. It is much easier for me to read something than try to figure out what someone is saying to me so that makes blogging an easy way to communicate for me.
- In the past 4 years I have lost the two friends of whom I could tell anything (and did). Thank goodness I still have my sister and can now tell her anything and everything, but I miss the conversations I used to have with those friends. Blogging will never come close to replacing them but it is a start at something different.
Why do you blog and/or why do you read blogs?